When the sun was hidden for a while...
The problem was me, how I felt about myself and how I let others make me feel. Our family life circumstances were good. I was loved but had no light - just stress, anger, sadness, feeling uncared for by friends and a lot of guilt because I had a little boy who needed a well mummy.
I started blossom and through the first few sessions I started to understand myself better and gradually accept who I am, an ISFJ. The first stress workshop was my darkest point - I realised how bad things have got and from then on things had to change.
Maybe it could be less dark.
Through doing mood boards it reminded me of what I enjoy - nature, the garden, cake, chocolate and painting my nails being some. It doesn’t have to be complicated. In fact it’s about being present and seeing light wherever you are.
Stress workshop 2 definitely had rays of sunshine. I had talked and was honest about me and where I was at.
The support of others, just by listening was so helpful too.
I’m now trying to appreciate everything - my husband saying ‘I love you‘, my son holding my hand and giving me cuddles, to the sun, spring, birds singing, the moon, even rain. Being alive and realising I am me. I’m not a problem!
I’m many things - mum, wife, auntie, daughter, sister, business owner, employee as well as me and all those roles can be overwhelming but I know I can bring light to others by seeing the sunshine myself first .
The Sun is not always bright but it’s there!